感触良多的一晚。。。

电子闹钟的液体显示荧幕告诉我，时间已来到凌晨三点钟了， 而我还在这里，听着几首很有feel的歌，其中SHE的歌占了一大部分。。。。。

原本要赶课业的，却因为思绪有点混乱而耽误了课业的进展，还真觉得有点愧疚。。。。 看着室友睡得很香甜，自己却毫无睡意，是咖啡的效应，还是应为一些~剪不断理还乱~的事情烦着我呢？

和一位夜猫族的死党聊天，聊着聊着，把很多从前的回忆，随着一首首感人的曲子，一段段的往事，就很像旧电影般， 一幕幕的重现在脑海里。。。。

也许是记忆随着岁月的痕迹，也来也淡化了。。。。。 偶尔，真的要像今夜， 把他们翻翻出来，回忆一番。。。。。

遗憾是我们今夜的话题之一，相信大家的生命里多多少少都会有遗憾吧。。。。 无论是大遗憾， 又或是小遗憾，都会让你按着胸口， 闷住那口气， 时时刻刻活在懊悔中。。。。。 我的遗憾， 也不懂事算是哪门子的遗憾，因为自己不曾努力去争取任何东西，也怨不得任何人。。。。

今夜有位友人要离开了，聊天也没聊了多少， 就得收线，觉得有点可惜。。。。 这次他离开的有点不一样，因为他说舍不得。。。。

也许这个假期，大家都玩的太开心了吧。。。。。 这次一离开，又得等到明年的这个时候才能重逢了。。。。

今年农历新年，决定不回家了。。。。 原因是因为要实习，加上要照顾本小姐的荷包。。。。 因为要留些筹码给明年的旅行。。。。。。

我知道作了那个决定，我一定会很不好过，但是有能如何？ 即将错过很多的聚会，很多的趣事，很多的笑声。。。。。。。。

算了，再想下去，恐怕我会打消不回家的念头的。。。。。



很讨厌懦弱的自己！！！ 我不能在这里说明原因，但是我真的很讨厌自己！！！ 说好了要放手，但是却紧握着不放，真搞不懂我要的是什么？。。。。

可不可以让他随风而去？一阵狂风把他从我的思绪中卷走，不要再让他来打乱我的生活！！！

你可不可以滚远一点？？？！！！

我很痛苦， 你知道吗？？？。。。。。
你要把我折腾到什么时候才肯收手？？？！！！
又或是我自己再折腾着自己不放？？？
我真的快疯了！！！

more updates to come....!!!

I think you guys sure be bored with my post about my teaching life, so don't worry!!!

next will be some posts about my 1 week holidays!!!

went to Malacca, Macau, HongKong, KL and finally back to Kedah!!!

HongKong.....

Macau!!!!

macau!!!

Malacca!!!
KL

Stay tuned!!! ^^

My first fishing experiece

I start to realised that my blog is a bit over-focus on my teaching life now, but what to do? I am a teacher to be....sigh.....

and this time I am going to share my fishing experience with you guys, and yes, it's related to my students again....

as I told you guys in my previous entry, remember my God-brother, Shafiq?

YES, his dad is can be consider as a wealthy businessman. He owned a big ~Aquaculture farm~!!!

On the day before Carrie and I left Kedah for our mid-sem's holidays, Shafiq called me up and asked us to bring him to his dad's aquaculture farm at Malau.

so we reached there around 5pm, together with Nabil and Carrie.

This is my first time to see such a BIG fish rearing farm!!!
His dad rears various types of fish such as ikan Keli, ikan haruan, ikan bla bla bla....
I forgot the names d as I am not a fish lover.....>.< all the GIANT Ikan Keli....

a peaceful view.... you might be surprised by a big fish suddenly jumping up from the water surface!!



we had a great time over there and although I din manage to catch any fish on that evening.
Carrie did got a small fishie and that makes up our outing!!! ^^

fooling around with the kids!!!

we got the fish!!!!

Posing with the fish first....

trying to release the fish from the fishing rod

a small fishie .... it's cute!!!
we released it back to the pond in the end.......
kids are such a kind hearted ^.^

more photos to be shared....
Shafiq communicating with his dad's worker in the language that I don't understand.....
kids nowadays are really......=.-

Making the fishie's food....

waiting patiently for the fishie....

Shafiq got lots of fishing taboo or pantangs, here are some to share with you all IF you are interested....
#1. don not step across the fishing rod as you won get any fishie on that day....
#2. Do wear white cloth IF you wish to get lots of fishie on that day.....(p/s: it turn out freakingly ~chun~ as only Carrie whom wore the white polo-t manage to get a small fishie on that day while the rest of us go back with a an empty hand >.<''')
#3. Do not make any noise or chit-chatting when you are waiting for the fishie....(this one I also know la....hehe)

I really like the atmosphere of the aqua-farm....^-^

The baby fish .....

The adult ikan keli....damn BIG!!!!

Shafiq: keep quiet 1st... If not, the baby fish will know that we wana catch them!!!
Nabil: yes sir!!!

They trying to catch the fish with the plastic bag....
at last, they manage to catch the baby fish!!!


Little Nabil enjoy fishing because he also don't like any sport's activity like his teacher...>.<''' Looks so pro huh?!!!






Thanks for making my teaching life such an interesting story to be shared ^.^

and tml we going to fish again .....yeah!!!!

a day out with my kids!!!

My stories with the kids have not end yet....

on the last day of my practicum, I went to Pizza Hut with few of my FAV students, which were Nabil, shafiq, Irfan and his brother (cuz his brother will be alone in the house If he din follow us) and Fahmi.

They asked and begged me to bring them out as they said they wanted to treat me for a farewell lunch ( non-stop farewell-ING =.=)

I don't want to let them down so I promise them for a tea break at Pizza hut.

I pick them up around 3pm together with Liyong and Carrie. It suppose to be a post-b'day gathering for Liyong before she going back to BM, but end up with having fun with the kids....(I hope Liyong won be mind with that ^^)

and when the KIDS said they want to do something, you better believe them....cuz Shafiq really brought RM80 for the tea break. I was like *o*....

omg!!! Kids nowadays are really rich....!!! Shafiq said when he said wana "belanja teacher", he really mean it!!. and we were so surprised that this kid has a good manner and gentleman behaviour. Carrie was so surprise when Shafiq standing at the glass door of the Pizza Hut's entrance to wait for all of us enter including Carrie and Liyong and HE HOLD THE GLASS DOOR FOR US....

how sweet is that???!!!.....He looks matured and gentleman compared to other kids....he was the last one to sit on his seat after all of us sat on ours....

before that, let me briefly tell you something about this boy named Shafiq. He is actually a mixture of Malay and Pakistan. His dad is a Pakistanis while his mum is a Malay.
I start to realised his existence because he is very talented in music field...

at the age of 10, he already can play piano very well and his is now in Grade 5 of Piano course. As you all know, I love playing piano although I am a late learner. hehe....

He later become my God-brother as two of us were quite ~click~!!!
now he used to call me Kak Tammy instead of teacher...>.<''' The cute Mickey-looking boy with white shirt is Shafiq ^^


back to our outing at Pizza Hut, at first I was quite worry about bringing a bunch of ~monkeys~ for an outing, but I was glad to see them well-behave and having fun with us.

Here are some of their funny camwhoring session!!!

sigh sigh sigh.... Shafiq is playing with Nabil's ears.....

this is so violent la kids....
don't play play with the knife ler....!!!

and also the fork!!!......lolz...
p/s: they look so ~gayish~....>.<'''

in the end, I paid the bill as I can't let a kid to pay my bill....
Gosh, broke d after I saw the bill....

here are some photos of them....
let me introduce them one by one ^^

with fahmi....

with Haikal, Irfan's brother

with Irfan....

with Nabil

and finally the BIG boss....Shafiq



before leaving....
had camwhore session again...
they all are camwhore kakizzz like their teacher!!! lolz....



Anyway, I felt that it was worth as we really had a great time together ^^

sweet memories of my 2nd practicum.....

I have always wanted to post about my sweetness and bitterness for this second practicum at Sekolah Kebangsaan Jitra 3 ....

Sekolah Kebangsaan Jitra 3, 4English, 4Science, 3Arts, those ~terms~ that I would not forget for the rest of my life.....

well, frankly speaking, I started this practicum with a bad feelings and bad impression, because I had heard many stories about the classes that I am going to face for those 2 months....

and one more thing, I could not stop thinking and missing my students from my previous school which is Sekolah Kebangsaan Bandar Baru Darulaman which I had my first practicum over there....

but who knows, the thing turn to the other way it should be....
I started to love this school, I love my students, the teachers and even the staffs over there....

and this is my first time to cry in front of the kids.... sigh....such a shameful incident....

and the worst part is I cried for two times in their class.

The first time was after my ~rentasan~, they quarrel because of a small matter....
I was so tired and frust and I finally collapsed in their class...
I told them I was disappointed with their attitudes....
and this is the first time we cried together as a ~family~....

The second time and the last time I cried in their class was during our farewell day...
I tried to sort out all their photos and show to them in a slide show accompanied by some farewell songs such as ~goodbye my friends, viva forever, mungkin nanti~, and I made myself cried again....
I cant control myself, tears keep on rolling down and I can't even utter a single word after the photo slide shows ended....
I need Carrie to help me to conduct the class and this time even the boys cried together with me....
we took our class photo and everyone's eyes was red and filled up with tears....
we hug each other and bid farewell to each other....

I miss them a lot and until now I still keep in touch with them...
They called and sms-ed me....

and of course, I do admit that I am a human being, and of course I can't escape from the act of ~favoritism~...

I use to hang out with few of my fav students and I am glad that we enjoy each outing together regardless of our skin's colour and religion.
I met their parents and I am glad that they do trust me as a ~teacher~, not as a ~orang cina~...

but sometimes, religion and culture might be a issue for us.....
for example, they are having their fasting month, so it is not suitable to bring them for any outing.....
and the gals plan to cook for me at my house....

I was like >.<'''.... ~kids cook for me????~ I don't even have any ingredients for them to cook as they wanted to cook for me and ~buka puasa~ together with me at ~my house~!!!

Luckily they canceled the plan as their were some objection from some of the parents.... They called me this morning and said sorry to me as they can't come to my house for this coming Thursday...

I was like~ breathed a sigh of relief~ when I heard bout that.... but the kids cried when they said sorry to me, I felt a bit guilty with that....

Anyway, kids... thanks for making my practicum such a sweet and unforgettable one!!

I love you all...

here are some photos to share....enjoy!!! as usual, farewell will sure be accompanied by these gifts from them...

ugly me after cried in the class....





the boy at my right hand side is Nabil, my fav student!!!

another gang of students....



on my right hand side is my dear God-brother, Shafiq, a talented young pianist!!!

the gals!!!
with 4 science, another class....



our class photo after crying in the class.....sob sob....

The gals!!!the boys!!!