My childhood Dream.....

Can you see what is that??? yes!!! Its a keyboard!!! I finally can rent a keyboard from my teacher so that I can practise my piano lesson at my house d!!!

My room is really too small to store the keyboard. So I have no choice, to put the keyboard under my bed... Hopefully I wont step on it when I wake up and get down from my bed....



I always dream of playing all my fav songs by my own... I know its quite late for me to pick up the piano lesson, but at least I wont be regret to missed out a chance to learn to play piano!!!

Although practicum's life is damn hectic now, with the keyboard in my room, hopefully I can spend some time to practise on it...

Gambateh!!!

continues...

Just finish a cup of Quaker oat and biscuits....

while having my lunch, I spent some time to check my hotmails and MSN a while....

after that, I need to continue with my lesson plans again....

Long time din use hand writing in my reports d.... and for sure, my hand-writing is damn terrible...

Just got a msg from my lecturer, she suppose to observe my teaching on this coming Monday,but due to some reasons, she will postpone the observation to this coming Wednesday, which is April Fool...

I feel a bit relief now as I can have more time to know my 4Pintar's students so that I can carry out my lesson smoothly on Wednesday....

ok, I need to get back to my work now.... write write and write.... sienz ......

BUSY LIFE....

I started my practicum life once I step my foot on the land of Kedah. Wake up early in the morning and stay at the school till 1.45pm. The life of teacher begins....

We don't have to carry out any lesson for the 1st day because we are still new to the school's environment. We attended the assembly and have a meeting session with the PK 1 and our Guru Pembimbing. Well, we get a ~Guru Cemerlang~ as our Guru Pembimbing for this practicum. Pn Rohana is really a nice lady with lots of teaching experiences. I think we will learn lots from her.

The scary thing is that Carrie and I need to teach the year 4 and year 5's students on the next day. was damn scary man....

Can try to imagine.... 1st time enter the class with 45-47 pupils, all the kids looking at you like an alien as it is a Malay school, they rarely can see Chinese....
Some of them whisper to their friends:" Cikgu Cina la!!!" and some of them will be putting their eyes on you, scanning you from head to toe because you din wear baju kurung and have ~tudung~ like their other teachers.....

once you open your mouth to speak, they will be laughing at ur weird pronunciation of Bahasa Buku.....
Hmm... How am I gonna tackle these monkeys???-----headache-ING =.=

Luckily, some of them were cute and polite.... they will great us "good morning teacher" whenever they saw you.....but some of them just can't be close to Cikgu Cina kononnya.....sigh....

Anywhere, I entered year 5's class and had 2 periods with them... everything still goes smoothly I guess.
Maybe this is the 1st time they met me, so they still don't dare to be naughty....

Next week, my lecturer will be coming into my class and observe my lesson with the year 4 pupils. Hopefully everything will be ok.....

and now we need to write soooo many of lesson plans, reflections and collect info for our folio. its a busy and hectic life onwards....

I still have to attend my piano lesson. and I finally can drive on the road... Thanks to my room mate whom always trains me well. hmmm... I guess with few more times of practice, I will be able to drive steadily ^^

I hope that I can still spend some time to write some of my updates over here....
till then, see ya all soon ^7^

Practicum is coming ....

well, after 4 hours, I will be back to Kedah again....

This time I will have more freedom as we moved back to our old house again....

Not to forget, we will be having our practicum by this coming Sunday. I am so so so nervous cuz this is my first time to teach in a normal and real classroom....

I really don't have much confidence in teaching, and some more its a Malay school. It will be quite different from chinese school which I had my School Based Experience before.

Anyway, I hope that I can cope with all the nervousness and stress within this one-month practicum....

~praying hard~-.....

难受。。。。

刚刚被逼搬位了，因为我在麦当劳坐着的风水位要被清理，所以不能再呆在哪里。。。。。

但是， 好心的员工帮我找了一个有插头的地方，让我继续可以再上网， 要不然，漫漫长夜，不懂要怎么度过了？？？？

吃完了薯条，胃病又犯了， 很难受.....

留了一粒汉堡作早餐，要不然回到吉打的家时又得挨饿了。。。。。

还有四个小时倒数。。。。

胃感觉像快要爆了。。。。 很痛。。。。。。

真是一个凄凉的夜晚啊。。。。。

雨夜。机场。流浪。。。

才刚刚抵达LCCT， 时间已经是凌晨两点钟了， 听着梁文音的最幸福的事， 吃着麦当劳的薯条， 敲打着键盘， 写着今晚的心情故事。。。。。

今天的班机延飞了，原本应该在十二点凌晨到达的班机拖到现在才到， 而且也是第一次碰到下着大雨的机场，更加让我离开古晋的心情沉重了。。。。。

很不喜欢看着飞机慢慢的离开古晋夜景的视线的感觉， 虽然古晋的夜景是那么的迷人，但是看着自己身在的飞机慢慢的越飞越高，越飞越远，心情也慢慢的跌入谷底。。。。。

很不喜欢在晚上的班机， 坐在靠窗的座位， 尤其是从古晋飞到吉隆坡的班机，因为很不喜欢那种离开家乡的感觉。。。。。

这一次因为亚航已限定了位子，所以没办法得坐在靠窗的座位。。。。

自从去了吉打深造，在机场过夜似乎成了我生活的一部分。。。。
因为从吉隆坡飞往吉打的班机只有在隔天的早上。。。。。。。。。。。

每次都得在机场过夜的感觉并不好受， 得照顾着行李， 又得防人， 又不能睡觉， 整晚得守着行李，丝毫不能松懈。。。。。

每次在机场过夜时，没事做，便会开始想东想西的。。。。

时常在想，为什么上天会安排我到那么远的州深造？ 为什么要让我到吉打这种鸟不生蛋的地方生活？ 而且一待就得待五年半？？？？？

而且为什么来了这里，总是波折连连。。。。 从来没有一刻让我轻松过？？？

时常在回到古晋后，就尽量催眠自己，忘掉吉打烦人的事。。。。
但是， 在要回去面对的那刻， 心里是真的很难挨。。。。。。。。。。

朋友们，妹妹弟弟常常会觉得我难得去了吉打深造，玩也玩遍了西马， 但是有苦时， 又有谁懂？？？

要在这种充满了回教色彩的州生存下来，适应当地的生活，是真的很需要很坚强的毅力。。。。。

虽然来了这里后，让我体会了很多事情，但是我始终不能喜欢这里。。。。。

今晚的心情真的很差，原本以为下午可以好好睡一觉， 养足精神， 但是都怪那杯奶茶，让我整个下午， 翻来覆去，就是不能睡。。。。。

现在的我， 又累， 又爱睡， 但是却是睡不得。。。。
真的很折腾人呐。。。。。。。

我知道这是一篇很乱的文章，就有如我今晚的心情吧。。。。
请多多见谅。。。。

梁文音 - 可以不爱了

梁文音 - 可以不爱了

让窗户通通都打开 让阳光通通都照进来
让风放肆的吹伞我身上的尘埃
把你的过去变腐坏 把你的溺爱藏起来
把你的所有都搬到我房间以外

现在是三点钟 你应该还没醒呢
这有点刺眼的光线 会不会打扰你呢
梦不会实现了 我应该要醒了
我不该只懂得配合 你习惯短暂的温热

我努力要自己避开 和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯 处在我快乐的界外
我何尝不是一个人 来决定爱的延长赛
奈何总是勉强对自己 有一个善良的交代

我努力要自己躲开 你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐
到最後我可以不爱了 你却说舍不得
离开你欲走还留的眼睛
我要我忍住在一次抱你
躲开你转身以後的消息

这一次我可以
我努力要自己避开 和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯 处在我快乐的界外
我努力要自己躲开 你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐

到最後我可以不爱了 你却说舍不得
你可以不爱了 别说舍不得

最近喜欢上了这首歌。。。。　感触良多。。。。

本来就蛮喜欢梁文音的歌声，　下载了她的专辑，　但是一直没时间去好好听。。。。

最近播了几首专辑里的慢歌，　每首都很感动人心，很好听。。。。

梁文音的声音仿佛能够感动人类脆弱的心。。。。。。

感触。。。

刚刚和一位朋友讲完电话，　这通电话真的让我感触良多。。。。。

和她曾经是很要好很要好的朋友，中间因为发生了一些误会，　让我们的友情经历了一些阻碍，　在多年后的今天，　很庆幸大家还没因此而放弃对方，让我们今天还可以像以前那样通电话。。。。

一直觉得自己很没用，因为每次口口声声说很重视这段友情，但是自己却未曾勇敢的对他表示关怀，反而是他偶尔还会打电话，　和我聊天，虽然次数是甚少。。。。

但是，　真的很感动，有那么一瞬间，觉得一切都那么的熟悉，多么的自然。。。。。

但是，有时太在乎某些东西，反而会弄巧反挫。。。。

东西偶尔握的太紧，反而会让自己和对方受到伤害。。。。。

所以，目前这样的关系也许对我们是最好的吧。。。。

很庆幸当初没完全的放弃。。。。。。。。

真的。。。。



也许这几年来，大家在外地读书，经历了不少，　眼界真的大开了，　想法也开始成熟了吧。。。。。

从谈话中，可以察觉到以前的他又回来了，　还增添了几分成熟感，真的觉得很欣慰。。。。

小女孩终于长大了。。。。

我并没有奢望一切可以回到从前，　只希望未来我们还可以一起继续往前走。。。。

Poor driving skill!!!

why why why>???

Why I still cant drive properly??? sigh!!!!

Kinda frust with my parking skill!!!!

I am a POOR　ＤＲＩＶＥＲ　！！！！

updates...

coming back to Kuching for a short break....

Just dono why, I keep on eating and sleeping all day long.....

after coming back to Kuching, went to Sing Karaok with wan chen and secret recipe for last saturday.....

then hang out with chee at Boulevard on that nite as well.....the we have Char kuey Teow and ang Dao Peng at kenyalang old market for our supper^^
kinda rushy when we wana finish up the Ang Dao peng as we were the last customers....
Tauke was starring at us to wait us finish up the Ang Dao Peng so that they can close the stall and go home.....
first time felt so stressful to enjoy our Ang Dao Peng....=.=

went to The spring with Chee on the next day..... cuz promised to treat her at Secret recipe at The Spring ^^

and we spent a lot at THE FACE SHOP.....
(actually I am the one spending a lots.... bought BB cream which cost me RM80, then cleasing cream which cost me about RM50 and facial essence which cost RM40.....total is ----RM170)

while Chee onli bought a Black head remover stuff which cost her bout RM 36 only,... and it has a pleASANT Green TeA AROMA....

If I still can afford that, i will surely pick tat together with my other products!!!

After that, Chee them need to go back to Unimas for her class... then i started to settle my passport thing at Immigration department there.....
spent RM300 again....

I cant spend so much!!! I keep on reminding myself.... but.....

Ahhh!!!... forget bout it!!! I just wana enjoy my last few days at Kuching... going bck to Kedah by this coming Friday......

and my practicum is coming!!!!

Oh God....I haven really well-prepared... what am I gonna do????

Kids?? Books??? School??? ---headache =.=

old-time memories ^^

Got this post from chiew eim's blog and I found it sounds interesting:

let us have a look ^^

Signs to show that you are an 80-s
baby:

we grew up watching Transformers,
Thundercats, Woody Woodpecker,
Chipmunks, Mickey Mouse, Jem, Mask,
Ninja Turtles, Voltron, Baja Hitam,
Ultraman n not forgettin POWER RANGERS
n BUGS BUNNY!!!

had to brush our teeths during recess
at primary school? had to hold plastic
cups, line up with your classmates side
by side and start brushing our teeths
at some open area... or maybe near some
drain??

do you still remember that we had
'dentist' rooms where we had to have
our
teeths check?

not to forget our 'program minum susu'
in primary school.. everybody is
suppose
to buy like cartons of milk that
costed 30 cents each.. and you would
see
everyone drinking it everyday...its d
UHT milk...

the teachers who would want to punish
us must use yellow rulers to hit us on
our palms?? 1 metre length..

that a bowl of mihun soup or some soup
only costed 50 cents at the school
canteen...

went to some sundry shop near the
school or to the 'roti' man waiting
outside our schools so that we can buy
junk food like chickedees, mamee, ding
dang with some toys in it, 'Ti Kam',
ice-cream and we would play games like
monopoly, uno, old maid, and all other
card games like that...

another fun time would be during
Pendidikan Jasmani. the boys would
play football while the girls would
play netball... and it would be like we
were playing in the world cup...

but of course. the best would be main
guli, batu seremban, bottlecaps, ice-
cream sticks, 'Pepsi Cola one-two-
three', Cops and Robbers, main aci
duduk,getah... and for the not so
active, those kind of 'book games'
where
we would use buku latihan to draw and
ask our friends to play... and also dot
(titik) where its like conquering the
other party's dots? we use brains too
rite :D

do you remember the popsicles (ice-
cream tubes) which are actually ice and
colouring that are sold for 10 to 20
cents.. the colourful ones.. where you
usually bite off the top to glup it
down.orange tastes b best..

what about days when we felt like doing
naughty things such as folding papers
so small to make 'lastik' amd shoot
each other... how about throwing
chalks??

back then, micheal jackson was just
turning white.. and still had albums
coming out.. compared to CD's, we were
listening to casette tapes that sold
for RM9.90...

in computer class, we were still using
black and white computer moniters..
played 'Atari'... maybe SEGA or
NINTENDO...

well, are we all getting older or what?

1) if you understand what you have read
and you are smiling...

2) we have friends from school that are
already married...

3) we shake our heads everytime we
see high school students fussing about
their handphones in school..

4) we don't hang on phone with our
friends for hours a day talking about
nothing...

5) when we meet back with our friends
from time to time, we feel excited and
happy talking about old times, the
funny 'adventures' or stories that we
experienced as a kid..

6) last but not least, that when you
read this, you would think of all the
happy & sad memories that you have
experienced when you were still a kid
and would think of forwarding this to
your old friends that you have known
since forever... i'm sure they would
have a huge smile on their face after
reading this.....

7) im pretty sure we all miss our
school life.

we are getting older and older, and we start to think back of all the old and sweet memories.....
and I really miss those days ^^

and when I look at those old photos uploaded by AYS in Facebook, I really recalled back a lots of memories.....

my friends,

Hope you all doing fine ^^

Raining!!!

Rain God finally came to Kedah, after so many days of drought-like weather in Kedah.....

while I am typing this blog, I can hear the rain outside my window there, "tik-tak, tik-tak", melodious sounds by those rain droplets landing on the floor....

the atmosphere now is so cool and its really nice to lie on my bed, and hide inside my warm blanket......

munching my biscuits here, my fav songs accompanying me.....
I cant wait to jump to my bed and enjoy my nap before going for a small meeting for my BIG's activity...

Yea, Piggy is ready to have a nice sleep now.....

be right back soon.....

I like rainy day...^^