My childhood Dream.....

Can you see what is that??? yes!!! Its a keyboard!!! I finally can rent a keyboard from my teacher so that I can practise my piano lesson at my house d!!!

My room is really too small to store the keyboard. So I have no choice, to put the keyboard under my bed... Hopefully I wont step on it when I wake up and get down from my bed....



I always dream of playing all my fav songs by my own... I know its quite late for me to pick up the piano lesson, but at least I wont be regret to missed out a chance to learn to play piano!!!

Although practicum's life is damn hectic now, with the keyboard in my room, hopefully I can spend some time to practise on it...

Gambateh!!!

continues...

Just finish a cup of Quaker oat and biscuits....

while having my lunch, I spent some time to check my hotmails and MSN a while....

after that, I need to continue with my lesson plans again....

Long time din use hand writing in my reports d.... and for sure, my hand-writing is damn terrible...

Just got a msg from my lecturer, she suppose to observe my teaching on this coming Monday,but due to some reasons, she will postpone the observation to this coming Wednesday, which is April Fool...

I feel a bit relief now as I can have more time to know my 4Pintar's students so that I can carry out my lesson smoothly on Wednesday....

ok, I need to get back to my work now.... write write and write.... sienz ......

BUSY LIFE....

I started my practicum life once I step my foot on the land of Kedah. Wake up early in the morning and stay at the school till 1.45pm. The life of teacher begins....

We don't have to carry out any lesson for the 1st day because we are still new to the school's environment. We attended the assembly and have a meeting session with the PK 1 and our Guru Pembimbing. Well, we get a ~Guru Cemerlang~ as our Guru Pembimbing for this practicum. Pn Rohana is really a nice lady with lots of teaching experiences. I think we will learn lots from her.

The scary thing is that Carrie and I need to teach the year 4 and year 5's students on the next day. was damn scary man....

Can try to imagine.... 1st time enter the class with 45-47 pupils, all the kids looking at you like an alien as it is a Malay school, they rarely can see Chinese....
Some of them whisper to their friends:" Cikgu Cina la!!!" and some of them will be putting their eyes on you, scanning you from head to toe because you din wear baju kurung and have ~tudung~ like their other teachers.....

once you open your mouth to speak, they will be laughing at ur weird pronunciation of Bahasa Buku.....
Hmm... How am I gonna tackle these monkeys???-----headache-ING =.=

Luckily, some of them were cute and polite.... they will great us "good morning teacher" whenever they saw you.....but some of them just can't be close to Cikgu Cina kononnya.....sigh....

Anywhere, I entered year 5's class and had 2 periods with them... everything still goes smoothly I guess.
Maybe this is the 1st time they met me, so they still don't dare to be naughty....

Next week, my lecturer will be coming into my class and observe my lesson with the year 4 pupils. Hopefully everything will be ok.....

and now we need to write soooo many of lesson plans, reflections and collect info for our folio. its a busy and hectic life onwards....

I still have to attend my piano lesson. and I finally can drive on the road... Thanks to my room mate whom always trains me well. hmmm... I guess with few more times of practice, I will be able to drive steadily ^^

I hope that I can still spend some time to write some of my updates over here....
till then, see ya all soon ^7^

Practicum is coming ....

well, after 4 hours, I will be back to Kedah again....

This time I will have more freedom as we moved back to our old house again....

Not to forget, we will be having our practicum by this coming Sunday. I am so so so nervous cuz this is my first time to teach in a normal and real classroom....

I really don't have much confidence in teaching, and some more its a Malay school. It will be quite different from chinese school which I had my School Based Experience before.

Anyway, I hope that I can cope with all the nervousness and stress within this one-month practicum....

~praying hard~-.....

难受。。。。

刚刚被逼搬位了，因为我在麦当劳坐着的风水位要被清理，所以不能再呆在哪里。。。。。

但是， 好心的员工帮我找了一个有插头的地方，让我继续可以再上网， 要不然，漫漫长夜，不懂要怎么度过了？？？？

吃完了薯条，胃病又犯了， 很难受.....

留了一粒汉堡作早餐，要不然回到吉打的家时又得挨饿了。。。。。

还有四个小时倒数。。。。

胃感觉像快要爆了。。。。 很痛。。。。。。

真是一个凄凉的夜晚啊。。。。。

雨夜。机场。流浪。。。

才刚刚抵达LCCT， 时间已经是凌晨两点钟了， 听着梁文音的最幸福的事， 吃着麦当劳的薯条， 敲打着键盘， 写着今晚的心情故事。。。。。

今天的班机延飞了，原本应该在十二点凌晨到达的班机拖到现在才到， 而且也是第一次碰到下着大雨的机场，更加让我离开古晋的心情沉重了。。。。。

很不喜欢看着飞机慢慢的离开古晋夜景的视线的感觉， 虽然古晋的夜景是那么的迷人，但是看着自己身在的飞机慢慢的越飞越高，越飞越远，心情也慢慢的跌入谷底。。。。。

很不喜欢在晚上的班机， 坐在靠窗的座位， 尤其是从古晋飞到吉隆坡的班机，因为很不喜欢那种离开家乡的感觉。。。。。

这一次因为亚航已限定了位子，所以没办法得坐在靠窗的座位。。。。

自从去了吉打深造，在机场过夜似乎成了我生活的一部分。。。。
因为从吉隆坡飞往吉打的班机只有在隔天的早上。。。。。。。。。。。

每次都得在机场过夜的感觉并不好受， 得照顾着行李， 又得防人， 又不能睡觉， 整晚得守着行李，丝毫不能松懈。。。。。

每次在机场过夜时，没事做，便会开始想东想西的。。。。

时常在想，为什么上天会安排我到那么远的州深造？ 为什么要让我到吉打这种鸟不生蛋的地方生活？ 而且一待就得待五年半？？？？？

而且为什么来了这里，总是波折连连。。。。 从来没有一刻让我轻松过？？？

时常在回到古晋后，就尽量催眠自己，忘掉吉打烦人的事。。。。
但是， 在要回去面对的那刻， 心里是真的很难挨。。。。。。。。。。

朋友们，妹妹弟弟常常会觉得我难得去了吉打深造，玩也玩遍了西马， 但是有苦时， 又有谁懂？？？

要在这种充满了回教色彩的州生存下来，适应当地的生活，是真的很需要很坚强的毅力。。。。。

虽然来了这里后，让我体会了很多事情，但是我始终不能喜欢这里。。。。。

今晚的心情真的很差，原本以为下午可以好好睡一觉， 养足精神， 但是都怪那杯奶茶，让我整个下午， 翻来覆去，就是不能睡。。。。。

现在的我， 又累， 又爱睡， 但是却是睡不得。。。。
真的很折腾人呐。。。。。。。

我知道这是一篇很乱的文章，就有如我今晚的心情吧。。。。
请多多见谅。。。。

梁文音 - 可以不爱了

梁文音 - 可以不爱了

让窗户通通都打开 让阳光通通都照进来
让风放肆的吹伞我身上的尘埃
把你的过去变腐坏 把你的溺爱藏起来
把你的所有都搬到我房间以外

现在是三点钟 你应该还没醒呢
这有点刺眼的光线 会不会打扰你呢
梦不会实现了 我应该要醒了
我不该只懂得配合 你习惯短暂的温热

我努力要自己避开 和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯 处在我快乐的界外
我何尝不是一个人 来决定爱的延长赛
奈何总是勉强对自己 有一个善良的交代

我努力要自己躲开 你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐
到最後我可以不爱了 你却说舍不得
离开你欲走还留的眼睛
我要我忍住在一次抱你
躲开你转身以後的消息

这一次我可以
我努力要自己避开 和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯 处在我快乐的界外
我努力要自己躲开 你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯 得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人 吞噬着自己的能耐

到最後我可以不爱了 你却说舍不得
你可以不爱了 别说舍不得

最近喜欢上了这首歌。。。。　感触良多。。。。

本来就蛮喜欢梁文音的歌声，　下载了她的专辑，　但是一直没时间去好好听。。。。

最近播了几首专辑里的慢歌，　每首都很感动人心，很好听。。。。

梁文音的声音仿佛能够感动人类脆弱的心。。。。。。

感触。。。

刚刚和一位朋友讲完电话，　这通电话真的让我感触良多。。。。。

和她曾经是很要好很要好的朋友，中间因为发生了一些误会，　让我们的友情经历了一些阻碍，　在多年后的今天，　很庆幸大家还没因此而放弃对方，让我们今天还可以像以前那样通电话。。。。

一直觉得自己很没用，因为每次口口声声说很重视这段友情，但是自己却未曾勇敢的对他表示关怀，反而是他偶尔还会打电话，　和我聊天，虽然次数是甚少。。。。

但是，　真的很感动，有那么一瞬间，觉得一切都那么的熟悉，多么的自然。。。。。

但是，有时太在乎某些东西，反而会弄巧反挫。。。。

东西偶尔握的太紧，反而会让自己和对方受到伤害。。。。。

所以，目前这样的关系也许对我们是最好的吧。。。。

很庆幸当初没完全的放弃。。。。。。。。

真的。。。。



也许这几年来，大家在外地读书，经历了不少，　眼界真的大开了，　想法也开始成熟了吧。。。。。

从谈话中，可以察觉到以前的他又回来了，　还增添了几分成熟感，真的觉得很欣慰。。。。

小女孩终于长大了。。。。

我并没有奢望一切可以回到从前，　只希望未来我们还可以一起继续往前走。。。。

Poor driving skill!!!

why why why>???

Why I still cant drive properly??? sigh!!!!

Kinda frust with my parking skill!!!!

I am a POOR　ＤＲＩＶＥＲ　！！！！

updates...

coming back to Kuching for a short break....

Just dono why, I keep on eating and sleeping all day long.....

after coming back to Kuching, went to Sing Karaok with wan chen and secret recipe for last saturday.....

then hang out with chee at Boulevard on that nite as well.....the we have Char kuey Teow and ang Dao Peng at kenyalang old market for our supper^^
kinda rushy when we wana finish up the Ang Dao peng as we were the last customers....
Tauke was starring at us to wait us finish up the Ang Dao Peng so that they can close the stall and go home.....
first time felt so stressful to enjoy our Ang Dao Peng....=.=

went to The spring with Chee on the next day..... cuz promised to treat her at Secret recipe at The Spring ^^

and we spent a lot at THE FACE SHOP.....
(actually I am the one spending a lots.... bought BB cream which cost me RM80, then cleasing cream which cost me about RM50 and facial essence which cost RM40.....total is ----RM170)

while Chee onli bought a Black head remover stuff which cost her bout RM 36 only,... and it has a pleASANT Green TeA AROMA....

If I still can afford that, i will surely pick tat together with my other products!!!

After that, Chee them need to go back to Unimas for her class... then i started to settle my passport thing at Immigration department there.....
spent RM300 again....

I cant spend so much!!! I keep on reminding myself.... but.....

Ahhh!!!... forget bout it!!! I just wana enjoy my last few days at Kuching... going bck to Kedah by this coming Friday......

and my practicum is coming!!!!

Oh God....I haven really well-prepared... what am I gonna do????

Kids?? Books??? School??? ---headache =.=

old-time memories ^^

Got this post from chiew eim's blog and I found it sounds interesting:

let us have a look ^^

Signs to show that you are an 80-s
baby:

we grew up watching Transformers,
Thundercats, Woody Woodpecker,
Chipmunks, Mickey Mouse, Jem, Mask,
Ninja Turtles, Voltron, Baja Hitam,
Ultraman n not forgettin POWER RANGERS
n BUGS BUNNY!!!

had to brush our teeths during recess
at primary school? had to hold plastic
cups, line up with your classmates side
by side and start brushing our teeths
at some open area... or maybe near some
drain??

do you still remember that we had
'dentist' rooms where we had to have
our
teeths check?

not to forget our 'program minum susu'
in primary school.. everybody is
suppose
to buy like cartons of milk that
costed 30 cents each.. and you would
see
everyone drinking it everyday...its d
UHT milk...

the teachers who would want to punish
us must use yellow rulers to hit us on
our palms?? 1 metre length..

that a bowl of mihun soup or some soup
only costed 50 cents at the school
canteen...

went to some sundry shop near the
school or to the 'roti' man waiting
outside our schools so that we can buy
junk food like chickedees, mamee, ding
dang with some toys in it, 'Ti Kam',
ice-cream and we would play games like
monopoly, uno, old maid, and all other
card games like that...

another fun time would be during
Pendidikan Jasmani. the boys would
play football while the girls would
play netball... and it would be like we
were playing in the world cup...

but of course. the best would be main
guli, batu seremban, bottlecaps, ice-
cream sticks, 'Pepsi Cola one-two-
three', Cops and Robbers, main aci
duduk,getah... and for the not so
active, those kind of 'book games'
where
we would use buku latihan to draw and
ask our friends to play... and also dot
(titik) where its like conquering the
other party's dots? we use brains too
rite :D

do you remember the popsicles (ice-
cream tubes) which are actually ice and
colouring that are sold for 10 to 20
cents.. the colourful ones.. where you
usually bite off the top to glup it
down.orange tastes b best..

what about days when we felt like doing
naughty things such as folding papers
so small to make 'lastik' amd shoot
each other... how about throwing
chalks??

back then, micheal jackson was just
turning white.. and still had albums
coming out.. compared to CD's, we were
listening to casette tapes that sold
for RM9.90...

in computer class, we were still using
black and white computer moniters..
played 'Atari'... maybe SEGA or
NINTENDO...

well, are we all getting older or what?

1) if you understand what you have read
and you are smiling...

2) we have friends from school that are
already married...

3) we shake our heads everytime we
see high school students fussing about
their handphones in school..

4) we don't hang on phone with our
friends for hours a day talking about
nothing...

5) when we meet back with our friends
from time to time, we feel excited and
happy talking about old times, the
funny 'adventures' or stories that we
experienced as a kid..

6) last but not least, that when you
read this, you would think of all the
happy & sad memories that you have
experienced when you were still a kid
and would think of forwarding this to
your old friends that you have known
since forever... i'm sure they would
have a huge smile on their face after
reading this.....

7) im pretty sure we all miss our
school life.

we are getting older and older, and we start to think back of all the old and sweet memories.....
and I really miss those days ^^

and when I look at those old photos uploaded by AYS in Facebook, I really recalled back a lots of memories.....

my friends,

Hope you all doing fine ^^

Raining!!!

Rain God finally came to Kedah, after so many days of drought-like weather in Kedah.....

while I am typing this blog, I can hear the rain outside my window there, "tik-tak, tik-tak", melodious sounds by those rain droplets landing on the floor....

the atmosphere now is so cool and its really nice to lie on my bed, and hide inside my warm blanket......

munching my biscuits here, my fav songs accompanying me.....
I cant wait to jump to my bed and enjoy my nap before going for a small meeting for my BIG's activity...

Yea, Piggy is ready to have a nice sleep now.....

be right back soon.....

I like rainy day...^^

our new hostel in IPDA

I wanted to post about my new hostel long long time ago d... but whenever i try to upload those photos, they just can't get through....

now, let me show you my brand-new hostel in IPDA....


still under construction>>>> nope!!!
its actually the outside view of my room... another hostel is on the progress....
but its really irritating loe.... cuz whenever I try to take my nap, i will be waken up by those constructions progress that produce a lots of noise outside there...=.=

my cupboard....

some shots....

the yellowish curtain....

my luggage and some other stuffs....


after moving all our stuffs from the store...
damn messy and its realli took ages of time to clear them up=.=

and not to forget Mee yin's bday!!!

Happi bday Mee yin!!!

Pyjama's nite in Mee yin's room!!!

Blowing the candle and make a wish!!!

although the hostel looks nice and New, we going to move back to taman siswa UUm most probably on this coming March!

Bye bye my new hostel!!!

~tHe mOmEnt~ Part 2

let us continue with all the GREAT photos taken at Hollywood Bridal ^^

The blackzzzz shall continue....


Round and round.... although Ays seems to be out of our circle...=.=
(p/s: that is vin's fault as he adjust his head a bit nia, then ays olad cant fit into the circle... sienz...)

~heart~ this photo as well.... looks so casual ar....

mike's deep ~v~ collar shirt looks so sexy ar... haha

we wanna Fly!!!! a bit weird la nic and ays's pose... looks more like ~Berdoa~???=.=


Mike hold chee till so tight.... haha... but dats sweet ^^

don't get this photo wrong!!!! hmmm.... the right hand side obviously is a pair of sweet couple!!!
Left hand side ei dio ehem.... a pair of *Ji mui*!!!

meaningful isn't it??? ~heart~ this very much ^^

haha.... we look a bit cacat... =.-


acting again!!!.... we are very good in acting... mwhahaha.....

colourful combination .... Its actually Rainbow series... did you realise dat?

The photographer keep on asking us to open our mouth... but vin still insists not to open his ~golden mouth~

looks like we are doing shirts' advertisement???
anyway, I like the colour of shirts after edited by those photographer... looks sharp....
I still prefer our face not to be Grey colour la actually.....


yea!!! we had a hard time to take this shot!!! keep on Jumping and NG....
Luckily, the effect looks Great!!!
kinda promoting sport shoes!!!

Bing-Chee-Ling=ice cream^^

acting like kids ^^

The Guys....^^

Mike looks innocent =.=

We had a great time being together.... This gonna be a treasured memories for seven of us...

Friends Forever!!!

~heart~ you guys!!!

~tHe mOmEnt~

sorry for not turning up for a certain time....

was quite busy with all the assignments and the broadband line is damn POOR!!!

i need to spend quite a number of time to upload my photos !!!!

here are some photos to share......

*heart* them very much!!!!

Its gonna be a memorable moment for us ^^
three of us ^^ Chee*Ling*Bing*

The guys~ smart!!!

seven of us....^^

Actually we tried very hard to pose.... but still a bit unnatural as we are really ~fresh models~...
=.=

Next, we will be having a career look!!! you can guess our future career easily by just looking at our appearence ^^

Doctor Lee....

This is a bit hard to guess.... hmmm.... with a sempoa wor...
Business man? butcher selling ~tu bak~? Along?
No no no.... its Quantity Surveyor la!!!! =.=
actually our original plan is to let Mike holding a Huge calculator.... but he prefer sempoa!!!
anyway, its really a creative idea!!! LoL



thinking of our future???

we can start to pose very well d....Wad the FREAK....=.=

yea yea yea.... I am Miss Teo.....so what???
Frankly speaking, I don't really like my Teacher-look ...


Now, its the black series!!! I like them very much!!! look slimmer in black... wakaka....


Acting cool???... we think we are ~cool~ enuf rite???

Ling is yawning.... and she is the special one!!! hehe...

NG la..... but looks natural.....


ooppsss... its 3.25am in the morning d.... really need to sleep liao... tml still have class.... sigh....

will be more photos coming soon!!! stay tuned !!!^^

Setiausaha BIG and Ketua Ajk buku program...

I just came back from the Cafe after having discussion regarding to our paper work for the BIG (BINA INSAN GURU)'s trip...

This time we are going to SMK Syed Omar which is located at Alor Star.... Its a cluster school....

I have no idea why I can be selected as the SU although I am absent on that day.... This really irritate me.....

Not that I don't want to take the responsibility, just that it is really a bit annoying when some of the people do nothing except bullshitting over there!!!

And I oso kena as Ketua AJK for Buku program for the lawatan to UUM....WTF!!!
I hate those ppl whom simply shout others name for fun during the nominating session for the selection of board of committee for certain program...

c'mon!!! this is about doing work and we need to nominate the most suitable candidate according to their ability ....

and because of those stupid monkeys nominated my name for fun, and there are no ppl willing to take the responsibility to do the job, I became the victim!!!

This semester is busy enough with all the assignments, Gerko, practicals, and here comes these activities to burden us again....

*helpless-ing~

Gimme a break...!!!!

Please give me a break....

Troubles never end......

This is the phrase which describes my life for this semester!!!!

1. problem with the hostel....we were "DITAWARKAN" to move out from our new hostel earlier...
"ditawar atau dipaksa ni????"

2. too many activities for this semester.... this week we going to Penang for 3days for the field trip...
then the next trip coming soon is for the Bina Insan Guru's activity....
then the next next week we having lawatan to UUM for 2days.....
Then we having kursus for Olahraga next week.....

3. Need to spend time to clean our new house at taman siswa UUm and need to find a day to move our stuffs to there agn... thats gonna be very very very tired.....

4. hardly can cope with my studies with all the activities going on....and some lecturers are just .....speechless...

Gimme A BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bye bye to Cameron Highland...

yes... I am not going to Cameron for this coming March cuz I am going back to Kuching agn....

A bit lazy to explain......

Just that I am going bck to recharge myself....

Too many things happen within this week and I feel like suffocating d......

I hardly can explain over here.....

and 1 more thing, I am going back to my previous hostel at Taman Siswa UUm again....

sounds crazy huh???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don feel like bother or care bout it anymore....

haunted? dirty? wat ever la....

as long as I can leave this jail-styled hostel in college.....

I don't want to listen to those bullshits from the stupid ppl anymore....

" tutup aurat..... ah moi...."
"jangan pakai Ketat sangat moi....nanti saya tak tahan....WTF!!!!"
"skirt u biar labuh sikit... balu nampak "sweet"....>.<'''

I feel like slapping them!!! apa yang u tak tahan???? Dirty minded!!!!!!

feel like vomiting when I heard them said those stupid words!!!.....

a handbook for each and every year indeed !

Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

Got this from one of my friends and I would like to share with You all.....

its' been a tough week for me.... feel helpless and stress.....
Anyway, thanks for all my buddies for being by my side when I need you....^^

Hot!!!!

Weather is hot like hell in Kedah now....

Its a BIG contrast with Kuching!!!!

and I am going out in a while to look for my house and also search a pair of new formal shoes as the shoes I wearing now is a bit uncomfortable.....

Wish me luck for the house and shoes as well!!!

Early in the morning.....

Its 9.21am in the morning, its my weekend..(cuz Kedah is one of the states that have their working day starts on Sunday =.=)

As usual, don't have class, no assignments, no quiz......

Listening to some of my fav songs while waiting for my friend to "ta bao" my breakfast for me....

Later going to Taman Siswa UUM, which is my previous hostel to look for a new house, hopefully can get a nice house for all of us....

last nite I had a nice chat with some of my friends until 1am...(maklum la....gals' gossip nvr ends...)

Just wana have a weekend which is relax and free of studies!!!!

Enjoy^^

troubles and more troubles....

This semester seems to be a hectic semester for us....

not only have to worry about our practical session for this coming March, then need to plan for our Mach's holiday trip as I am not going back to Kuching for one week's holidays...

we are planning to have a trip to Cameron Highland and Penang but there is a person who are not really welcomed are going to join us...

sienz liao.... ruin my mood nia.....

and the biggest issue now is to look for a suitable house for us to settle down after the college "chase" all of us out from the hostel.....

Because of the transport problem, we hardly can find a suitable area to move in....

How I wish I can ride motorcycle, or have enough money to support the loan for a used car....

and I start to worry about posting's stuff.... My friends have been joking around with me during CNY, said that I am gonna get "kapit". "ulu Kapit" and now the new one is "Kanowit"....

Although it is funny to listen to the jokes, I still quite worry about it....

sigh..... what to do? This is one of the risk to be a teacher.....

Hope that Ti kong gonna bo bi bo bi me la.....

hope to get Malacca, Negeri Sembilan or even Kl and JB for the posting....

Definately NO Sarawak for my first posting!!!!!

Adjusting back my study mood/mode....

Its been the forth day I left Kuching to Kedah....

Still, I am still in New Year mood and can't really focus on my study....

I hate the feeling when I need to get back to here after I had all the enjoyments in Kuching with my family and friends....

I always tell my friends that I do feel very bad and emo after I unpacked all my stuffs and took my bath....

Tears often roll down while I am taking my bath in the hostel....I hate it.....

Looking back all the photos, I miss all the foods, family and friends.

"Chap Goh Mei" is approaching, means that CNY is gonna end up very very soon.... one of our coursemate suggested to have a dinner on that night but I don feel like turning up....

Yes, I am playing "emo game" for once >.<'''

I am trying very hard to adjust back my mood as all the assignments are coming up.....
I might be a bit emo but I know myself well, I can handle this cuz I have been facing a situation which is even worst than this one.....

I know I can fix everything eventually......^^

Happy Birthday to Wanchen!!!

Its been the 3rd day in Kuching, but I still cant really have a good rest at my home sweet home....

Everyday is being a busy day for outing and last minute shopping.....

and not to forget my "ji mui"'s bday, we have a bday gathering at Kado's cafe.

here are some photos to share ^^


chee, mike,wc, ays, me and nic ^^


3 of us with the bday gal ^^


Happi bday wc!!!

another lighting....
say "cheese"......

having bday gathering at Kado's cafe


Group photo

wc with the guys ^^

Happi bday to my dearest jie mei and hope u have a great memories on that nite ^^

原来你就在我身边

萧闳仁 - 原来你就在我身边 歌词编辑:李泽昊 在太阳下我们等了好久的车 让时间拉长了影子 也许我们一直是很好的朋友 你也是这样想吗 常常不知所措的想 好想跟你好好说话 我们的世界可能有时差 真的感受你对我好 而我也都知道 很想大声的说我很想念 你 原来在我身边 我 却一直没发现 想 在一起的画面 瞬间胜过永远 我 会陪在你身边 梦 会实现在这个季节 我看着你看着 原来你在我身边 在太阳下我们等了好久的车 Hey 也许我们一直是很好的朋友 Yeah 你在我身边 在我身边 最近爱上了这首歌。。。。 很有意境的歌词。。。。。。。。

学会。。。。

我好想学会放手。。。。。

但是， 始终学不来。。。。。。

看到姐妹为了一段很有可能没结果的感情而默默的付出， 默默的继续喜欢那个人，默默的为他做许多许多的事， 甚至为了那个人不经意的对她的那么一点点的好而在那里开心了老半天。。。。

真不知该替她感到不值得， 或是要继续默默的支持她。。。。。。

她虽然知道和那个人要有结果的机率几乎是零， 但是她还是仍然不放弃， 也许是没办法放弃吧。。。。。

也许自己的性格和她一样吧，遭遇的情况也有点相似，所以很能明白她的感受。。。。。

我会永远的支持你，也希望你会早日找到一个真正值得你付出， 也懂得珍惜你的人！！！

我们要一起加油好吗？？？

要学会放手。。。。。。

让我们有机会去捕捉自己的幸福。。。。。。

而不是傻傻的紧握着不属于自己的空气。。。。。。

my college is going to be crazy again!!!

WTF!!!!!

My college is getting crazier and crazier!!!!!

Ok, at 1st you ask all of us to move into your new hostel from our sweet home-style hostel.....
You promise that we can stay here and use all the facilities as we like......

Now, you suddenly held a stupid fucking meeting, and say that you want us to move out again!!!!

I feel like throwing all the @#$W#$E to you !!!!!
And some more you want us to tell you where we gonna move by this Saturday......
Do you think that its that easy to just walk around and you can grab a house for rent?????

I bet you didn't eat PXRX, thats why you have such a ridiculous mindset!!!
Son of the bitch, you make us drive around like mad people for the whole evening just to look for houses to stay....

and the funniest thing is that almost all the houses already taken by the other students whom you gave them options whether to stay outside or inside the new hostel....

and now what you wanna expect from us????

If at 1st you knew that the new hostel can't accommodate all of our batch, then why you wan us to move into here and just stay for 1 semester???

Do you think moving and shifting houses is fun???? Shit you ar!!!
Its not a GAME!!!!
Its damn TIRING and wasting our time and money!!!!

I feel like slapping your CB face and kick your ass!!!!

Whenever I pass by your car, I feel like scratching it with my keys you noe!!!!

You are just a stupid mad dog !!! and now you become even crazier by asking all the Chinese to tutup aurat!!!!

c'mon!!! we have our own rights and we are students, not your slaves!!!!
you have been torturing us mentally and physically!!!!

Are you insane????? Perhaps you think that by torturing us, you feel excited and satsfied????

You seriously is a super fxcking mad dog!!!!

stupid broadband!!!

I am trying to upload some photos in my frenster and blogspot.....

but the stupid broadband connection keep on stopping me to do that!!!!

Geramnya!!!!!....

Since I move to this new hostel, I really hardly can have my own personal time to blog or check my mail.,....

Everyday seems to be a busy day for us....

and this Saturday we gonna have replacement class for CNY again....sigh。。。。。。。。。。

Some of my frens started to learn how to ride motorcycle d..... and its really not a trend for us in Kuching to ride motor....

so far I only knew Mike can ride motor, d others I guess only be able to drive.....

The reAson why they started to learn motor is because we gonna have our practical soon and we need transport.....

motor will be the easiest and cheapest transport for us I guess..........

And IF I say i also plan to learn to ride motor, what ｗｉｌｌ　ｂｅ　 your responｓｅ?

＝．＝　Ｉ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｍｏｓｔ　ｏｆ　ｍｙ　ｆｒｅｎｓ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｓｈｏｗ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｋｉｎｄ　ｏｆ　ｅｘｐｒｅｓｓｉｏｎ　ｗｈｅｎ　ｔｈｅｙ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｍｙ　ｐｌａｎ．．．．．

ｃｕｚ　ｕｎｔｉｌ　ｎｏｗ　Ｉ　ｓｔｉｌｌ　ｃａｎｔ　ｄｒｉｖｅ　ｓｔｅａｄｉｌｙ．．．．．

ｂｕｔ　ｗｅ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｓｅｅ　ｈｏｗ　ｉｔ　ｇｏｅｓ　ｌａ．．．．．

天差地别。。。。

最近吉打的天气真的很恐怖，清晨5或6点时， 天气冷的吓人。。。。

有位讲师竟然说， 那种冷的程度就像身在英国那样，虽然是有点夸张啦， 但是真的连我每天早上有冲凉的习惯的我都不敢去冲了，因为怕会感冒。。。。。

但是， 一到了中午，天气变180度的转变，热的像在沙漠般。。。。。。

由于最近本小姐都在积极的减肥，好让今年新年的新衣不会被我撑爆， 这两个礼拜以来都不食人间烟火， 天天喝老人麦片， 还有喝我的shake shake， 搞到自己一到晚上就不由自主地发冷。。。。

但是， 我依然要坚持下去， 每天都去草场和我的room mate 和 我那位爱吃腊肠的死党跑步， 希望在过年前可以有着比较见得人的身材回去。。。。。。

北马这里现在是旱季，古晋那里却是雨季， 妈妈打电话来的时候，都会说古晋几乎天天都在下雨，真希望过年时不要再持续下豪雨，以免扫了大家去拜年的兴致。。。。。

妈妈每次打来， 都是在忙着做cookies， 要不然就是忙着油漆， 我和妹妹又不在家帮他的忙，真希望我老弟会乖一些， 帮帮家里的两老。。。。。

只剩下一个礼拜左右的时间，我便可以回家了。。。。

很期待呢。。。。。

凤梨酥， 肉干， 鱿鱼丝， 团圆饭。。。。。 你们都要等我哦！！！！

WHAT TEACHERS MAKE?

The dinner guests were sitting around the table discussing life.

One man, a CEO, decided to explain the problem with education. He
argued, 'What's a kid going to learn from someone who decided his best
option in life was to become a teacher?'

He reminded the other dinner guests what they say about teachers:
'Those who can, do. Those who can't, teach.'

To stress his point he said to another guest;
'You're a teacher, Bonnie. Be honest. What do you make?'


Bonnie, who had a reputation for honesty and frankness replied, 'You
want to know what I make? (She paused for a second, then began...)

'Well, I make kids work harder than they ever thought they could.

I make a C+ feel like the Congressional Medal of Honor.

I make kids sit through 40 minutes of class time when their parents
can't make them sit for 5 without an I Pod, Game Cube or movie rental.

You want to know what I make?' (She paused again and looked at each and
every person at the table.)

''I make kids wonder.

I make them question.

I make them apologize and mean it.

I make them have respect and take responsibility for their actions.

I teach them to write and then I make them write. *Keyboarding isn't
everything.

I make them read, read, read.

I make them show all their work in math. *They use their God given
brain, not the man-made calculator.

I make my students from other countries learn everything they need to
know in English while preserving their unique cultural identity.

I make my classroom a place where all my students feel safe.

I make my students stand, placing their hand over their heart to say
the Pledge of Allegiance to the Flag, One Nation Under God, because we
live in the United States of America.

Finally, I make them understand that if they use the gifts they were
given, work hard, and follow their hearts, they can succeed in life.'

(Bonnie paused one last time and then continued.)

'Then, when people try to judge me by what I make, with me knowing
money isn't everything, I can hold my head up high and pay no attention
because they *are ignorant... You want to know what I make?

I MAKE A DIFFERENCE . What do you make Mr. CEO?'

His jaw dropped, he went silent.

p/s: got this mail from one of my fren whom study in education course as well......

suddenly feel that I am proud with myself....(cuz I gonna be a teacher within 2 years time.....)

This coming March I am going to have my practical at one of the primary school in Kedah which gonna be a Malay school.....

Just hope that I can do the best as I know that teaching others will be much more different from studying for examination.....

You may be a top student in your academic achievement, but at the same time, it does not promise you to be a good educator.....

累了。。。。。

真的很累了。。。。

拖拖拉拉了很久。。。。。

自己已经不耐烦了。。。。。。、

朋友也看不下去了。。。。。。。。。

自己也不确定自己的心有多坚强。。。。。。。

也许害怕失去某些感觉。。。。。。

但是在这样下去， 很可能是一辈子的遗憾吧.....

说可以很潇洒， 但是还是担心一些不愉快的事即将发生。。。。。

真的不懂该怎么办？？？？

也许坦白会使最后的解决方案吧。。。。。。

Hell-liked life in the new hostel....

Finally I can online with my broadband d.... but the price of the modem is killing me...... RM399+68 (monthly fee) were making my wallet vomiting blood again.....

the worst part is that the allowance which I hope to receive for this semester will be bank in during the month of March and this drive me crazy!!!!
I now really can eat grass d!!!!

and yet CNY is coming..... i haven't complete my shopping for CNY ler!!!! although with "tampok lui" in my pocket, I still insists to go to Penang for shopping by tomorrow =.=

Luckily I got some "back-up" from the salary which I will receive b4 this cny..... sweat sweat!!!


Tammy is back and stay tuned for all the updates which she owe everyone for this year-end holiday!!!!

On the way back to Kedah.....

I am now freezing at LCCT with my coursemate, typing this blog and wondering what obstacles that I gonna face when I get back to Kedah....

Its been a long time I din turn up in my blog and was really busy with all the part time jobs....

my schedules were so full and I rarely can hang around with my frens at Kuching.....

here are my time table during this year- end holiday....

8.30am - 11.30am----- being tutor at XX tuition center...

1pm-10pm----- being a promoter at Bonia Handbags counter at Riverside there....

its being a hectic holiday for me and I really gain a lots of precious experiences and friends from those part time jobs....

Now, I need to settle my mindset and my mood back to study mode as I am going to face a lots of problems in the college later....

my new hostel problems seems to be a tough one for us.....
and I really cant imagine how my life gonna be without INTERNET....

so, I will try to get a Broadband asap so that I won be suffering in the small room of my new hostel....

and CNY is coming..... the feeling is some kinda complicated....

happy???
excited???
tired????
moodless????

well, Just let it be.....

Going to Penang for CNY shopping once I get my allowance....
hopefully 2009 will be a good year ahead ^^